a long time ago i put my thoughts into song. sometimes explicitly. sometimes subconsciously.

and they weren’t my songs.

now, i don’t think its a problem; looking for a way to say things that maybe shouldn’t be said - when an act or a word isn’t appropriate - losing yourself in music is good.

and before i try and dress this up any more let me make it clear i’m talking about making mixtapes. though itunes playlists now i guess have filled that space, and they sure make it easier to pull something together, to cut, paste and edit. a purist will tell you that you lose the magic of cueing a tape to needle drop but as two wise men agreed last week true innovators dont seek purity for authenticities sake but solutions to get them to where they want to be.

the elegant if detatched eloquence of a mixtape in forging new territory with friends or lovers is something i love to play with, and i’m one of those people who make artwork too so damn straight i take this seriously.

its been a long while since i put a collection together, partially because the hl fulfills more than a chunk of that purpose by being a slowly revolving dj set that says what i need it to when i need it. and partially because i’m free to speak my mind and i don’t need to accidentally drop songs about illicit liaisons into well metered whistful compliations but also as jak said, the passing of time and several other significant milestones give occasion to look back; to see how far we’ve come, no matter how tiring the climb’s been and even how much more of a struggle it will be. and it’s then that songs like this seem so so far away.

hayden - starting over